I know I’ve been radio silent for the last few weeks (more than a month yikes) but I promise I have a very great reason why!
If the title didn’t give it away I’ve been going to school to become a makeup artist! My course is one year long, and is and jam packed with knowledge ranging from beauty and bridal to special fx and gore. I won’t mention which school but I’ll give you a hint… it’s the top Makeup School in all of Canada 🙈❤️ Okay, it’s Blanche Macdonald! (Eek! 🎉)
Here’s a little snap from first days set up! The fun thing is as you learn your own rhythm of working, this set up can change, though mine is still very similar to this 😛
I’ve been eating up every second of it and every week is a new adventure for me. My confidence grows every day and I’ve learned to just go for it and try new things every day!
Along with that I’ve been learning a lot of new lessons in life, how to deal with all sorts of people, and conquering my anxiety one day at a time. I won’t talk too much about the negative but I’ll touch down on some of the more fun trivial things I’ve leaned.
1) Invest in your skincare. This seems a bit weird to be my top tip, but just as we wear our heart on our sleeve we tend to wear our stress on our face. Whether it’s from being exposed to harsh environments in the city or stressing over a test it’s important to help ease your skin along with your emotions. Also having makeup put on and then taken off, (sometimes on again) really takes a toll on the skin 😮 I feel like every week I get one blemish gone and another pops up right after it. Thankfully my ew goodies have mostly kept it at bay.
These are a few goodies I decided to invest in. Ultrabland cleanser is a wonderfully light oil based cleanser that really lifts the dirt and leftover makeup so easily from your face. After that I use their toner (not pictured) called Eau Roma water, and spritz all over my face. Then I wipe everything off with a cotton pad or two, and boy does that get the impurities off of your face. I sometimes do a final spritz just to really soak in the skin. Eau Roma Water is a hydrating toner (no alcohol in it) so you can even spritz yourself through the day to freshen up! Then I was on a roll and returned some Lush containers and received a free face mask called ‘Oatfix‘. I chose that one specifically for sensitive skin that needed some help. 😊 I am so lucky that where I’m staying I have a Lush only a 10 min walk away! It’s such a treat!
2) Take time for yourself, anxiety can always catch up with you. I’m sure I’m not the first person whose experienced anxiety in some form and thought ‘I was doing so good why is this happening?’. Usually I say let the good times roll, but it’s important to leave time for yourself and having some bliss. This for me has meant unplugging from social media for a while and working on myself. I was so proud that I had ‘conquered 3 weeks at school with feeling no stress or anxiety’. Well that caught up to me in a big way and I’ll just say it’s taken me a week and a half to get back to feeling relatively normal. It’s hard to do things like blogging and other creative outlets that you pour yourself into when you feel yourself being unhinged. I feel tempted to write myself a letter for the future if this ever happens again and reassure myself I can get through it no matter how excruciating and impossible it seems. It’s so hard to imagine the good when you’re surrounded by negative thoughts and feelings in your head.
Anyway, this is the quote from my planner this week and I think it’s wonderfully accurate.
3) Not everything is as it seems. This is mostly for myself. Starting my program, (and even now still) I thought my skill set was ok, but I was there to learn and that was that. I love makeup so I felt a tremendous amount of pressure to do great, but I also walked in believing I wouldn’t do as good as others because my skills were not as exercised. It seems I am doing quite well in the course and this is more of a high five to myself, not bragging in any way. There were numerous makeup applications and techniques that I immediately wrote myself off as ‘doomed to fail’ and then I applied them really well! I was convinced I couldn’t do it yet there I was doing it! This months celebration was applying false lashes. I’ve never done it, there I said it. Really only once to myself but never to anyone else. I am a falsie rookie all the way. As I anxiously held the strip lash in my tweezers I had ‘you’re going to mess up’ bouncing around in my head as well as ‘please god don’t let this end up in her eyebrow somehow’. I went in, did my best, and by some miracle applied it perfectly. That small (but powerful) voice in my head was cheering in the background, knowing I could do it all along. Don’t doubt yourself before you’ve even tried.
On a positive note I’ve been reading more since going to school. It feels like reading is more relaxing now where I used to think that watching YouTube was. But now if I watch videos I tend to fall asleep haha. So my favourite book as of the moment is ‘The Curious Incident Of The Dog In The Night-Time’.
I won’t go into detail but the perspective of this book is so incredibly different and refreshing I cannot get enough of it. The narrative is charming, real, and funny.
Also I’ve been giving myself little treats for my ‘accomplishments’, just like sweets and whatnot (sounds so silly but it works) And the first week I was hugely spoiled with cinnamon buns from my Aunty. They were delightful. 😋
Anyhoo, It’s been an absolute roller coaster to say the least but I feel myself getting used to my new routine, and my confidence is growing strong every day. I’ve started running again and it feels amazing and relieves so much anxiety I forgot how much I love it and need to to it. My favourite thing to do is to run down and along the beach (when it’s not raining haha)
Spring has definitely sprung despite the rain clouds moving in in the last few days!
You’ll have to forgive me for how absent I’ve been, it’s even taken me multiple times just to write this one post 😂 between school, homework, work, family and relationships there’s not a huge amount of downtime sometimes. I’m very much looking forward to the next few days as it is Easter and all the family is up and I am home!
Have a lovely day!~M